Otherwise, I Would Bury Myself There
否则我要埋在那里
2020 - 2021
太阳太远了
否则我要埋在那里
《早祷与枭》
海子
The sun is too far,
Otherwise, I would bury myself there.
— Morning Prayer and the Owl
by Haizi
2020年疫情开始时，物理层面的隔离使我对自身与外界的联系感到不安，产生质疑。长时间的独处使心理层面一些悬而未解的困惑被放大到了不可再被忽视的程度，这程度的剧烈性使意识常常被迫进入到一种半自发的活溺死状态，我称之为“浮游”。浮游时，我拼命地向周遭投以寻求回应的目光，这目光起初是对人，随之转向对自然的依赖。在这个系列里，我试图在图像中回溯这一个时间段中自己的经验，并将那些似曾相识的东西捕捉下来，将自己浸至其中。
When the pandemic began in 2020, the enforced isolation unsettled me, unraveling my sense of connection to the world beyond. Prolonged solitude magnified dormant uncertainties, plunging my consciousness into a tempestuous, half-dreaming state I call "floating," where I drifted between suffocation and surrender. In this liminal space, my gaze turned outward, first seeking solace in people, then finding fragile refuge in nature. This series is a journey back through that fragmented time, an effort to distill and preserve fleeting echoes of familiarity in visual form.